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Chapter Eleven

He looked at her and in that instant, everything he had done tonight curdled into something sour and unrecognizable. The room, carefully arranged like a confession laid out in advance, suddenly felt like a stage after the audience had gone home. Candlelight no longer softened the shadows; it exaggerated them, pooling wax and flickering flame into something almost accusatory. The roses, still proud in their glass vase, looked obscene in their perfection, as if beauty itself had been conscripted into a lie. Even the air felt wrong, too perfumed, too intentional, thick with the effort of trying to undo damage using aesthetics and rehearsed sincerity.

A performance, his mind whispered, merciless and exact. You wrapped guilt in silk and called it love.

The realization struck with physical force. His stomach seized, a violent clench that stole his breath, heat flooding up his throat as anger slammed into grief, disbelief grinding against heartbreak until the sensations blurred into one overwhelming ache. The room tilted, reality pitching sideways as if the floor itself had lost faith in him. He stepped back, then another, his balance abandoning him as completely as his certainty. The strength drained out of his legs without warning.

His knees hit the floor.

The sound was dull. Final. A heavy, unforgiving thud that didn’t echo so much as settle like punctuation at the end of a sentence he hadn’t realized he was finishing. It sounded like an ending.

“Didn’t you say you were giving us a second chance?” he demanded, the words ripping free, jagged and unsteady, dragged out of him rather than spoken. His voice cracked under its own urgency. “Didn’t you say you forgave me?” His hands reached for her as if on instinct, shaking, grasping at her fingers, her wrists, her warmth, anything solid enough to keep him from collapsing completely. “Didn’t you say you loved me?”

Say it again, his mind pleaded desperately. Say it once more and make this stop.

She didn’t pull away.

That, somehow, was worse.

She also didn’t lean in. She remained exactly where she was, seated on the edge of the bed, her spine straight, her posture composed in a way that felt deliberate. Her gaze drifted past him not above him, not away in fear or anger, but past, as though he were a memory she had already begun placing at a distance. When she finally spoke, her voice was calm, measured, and precise. It had the careful sharpness of something meant to cut cleanly.

“Are you truly that stupid, Aryansh?”

The word landed with devastating accuracy. Not loud. Not shouted. Just placed. His breath left him in a sharp, wounded gasp, as if she had struck somewhere internal, somewhere already exposed.

“It was all a lie,” she continued, her tone unchanged. “A sham.”

His head shook on its own, denial reflexive, frantic, almost childlike. “You don’t mean that,” he whispered. You can’t. His voice thinned, frayed by panic. Not after everything.

“I do.”

Her hands slid free of his slowly, deliberately, without resistance or struggle. The loss was immediate, like a sudden drop in temperature, like realizing too late that something vital had been removed. His fingers curled uselessly around emptiness.

“I said what I needed to say so things wouldn’t fall apart before I was ready,” she went on. “I played the part you needed me to play.”

“No,” he breathed, his body shaking now, the tremors uncontrollable. “You were there. You laughed. You—” His voice splintered completely. “You held my hand. You let me believe—”

“I didn’t stop you,” she said, and this time there was no softness left to mistake for mercy. “That’s not the same thing.”

He stared up at her, eyes wet and unfocused, chest rising too fast, too shallow. His thoughts scattered uselessly. How could something feel so real if it wasn’t? The question screamed through him without an answer. “So every smile,” he said, barely audible, “every word… every night we fixed things—”

“I was surviving,” she replied quietly. “Not loving.”

Something inside him finally fractured. A broken sound tore from his throat half laugh, half sob, edged with disbelief and pain so sharp it barely resembled sound at all. “You let me spend weeks trying to be better,” he whispered. “You let me think we were healing.”

She looked at him then. Really looked. Not with anger. Not with triumph. With the weary clarity of someone who had already mourned what he was only now losing.

“And did you become better?” she asked. “Or did you just become comfortable again?”

The question landed without cruelty, without embellishment and that made it unbearable. He opened his mouth. Nothing came out. The silence answered for him.

She stood, stepping away from him with unhurried precision. Each movement felt intentional, final. “You were sorry when you were afraid of losing me,” she said. “You were present when guilt chased you. But you were never there when I needed you the most.”

“I didn’t know,” he said hoarsely. I swear I didn’t.

“You didn’t ask.”

The quiet that followed was immense, thick, suffocating, crowded with all the conversations that should have happened and never did. All the questions he hadn’t thought to ask because comfort had convinced him everything was fine.

He bowed his head, fists pressed into the floor as though he could anchor himself there, as though the ground might keep him from drifting apart entirely. “I love you,” he said finally, the words spilling out raw and unguarded, like a confession, like the last uncontested truth he had left. “That part was never a lie.”

Her voice softened then not with mercy, not with hope, but with deep, bone-level exhaustion.

“I know.”

And somehow, that hurt more than everything else combined.

She reached for her bag, the same one that had betrayed her secret, the same one that had waited patiently while their life unraveled around it. “I stayed long enough to be sure,” she said. “Long enough to know that loving you shouldn’t cost me myself.”

He looked up at her, eyes red, hollow, desperate. “If you walk out now…” His voice thinned to almost nothing. “I won’t survive this.”

She paused at the door, her hand resting briefly on the handle.

For one reckless heartbeat, hope flared small, foolish, aching.

Then she spoke, without turning back.

“I already didn’t.”

The door closed softly behind her.

The sound was quiet. Polite. Final.

The candles kept burning, wax folding in on itself.
The fairy lights continued to glow, indifferent and warm.
The roses remained untouched, their beauty suddenly unbearable.

And Aryansh stayed where he was on his knees, on the floor surrounded by gestures meant for a future that had already slipped away, leaving behind only silence, and the echo of a love he realized too late he had never fully learned how to hold.

Understood. I’ll let the sentences breathe, let the emotions pool and overflow inside full paragraphs, not clipped for effect but allowed to ache properly. Think of this as a chapter that refuses to rush its own heartbreak.

The pen did not move.

Aryansh remained bent over the table, his fingers hovering just above the polished surface, as if touching the pen would confirm something irreversible. His chest rose and fell unevenly, breaths coming shallow, uncertain, like his body no longer trusted the act of surviving. The room felt too bright, too awake for the death that was happening inside him. Candlelight licked the edges of everything, turning the air thick and golden, and he wondered dimly how something could look so alive while killing him so thoroughly.

Kiara stood by the window, her reflection faintly visible in the glass, layered over the city lights beyond. She looked composed, almost serene, but it was the stillness of someone who had already walked through fire and come out the other side. She was not waiting for him to decide. She was waiting for him to catch up.

“You planned this,” he said finally, the realization settling into him with a slow, crushing weight. His voice sounded unfamiliar to his own ears roughened, hollowed out, scraped thin by disbelief. “Every word. Every smile. Every night you lay beside me pretending that we were… finding our way back.”

The silence that followed was heavy, deliberate. When she answered, her voice did not rise or harden. It simply existed, steady and exact.

“Yes,” she said. “I had to.”

The certainty in her tone stripped him of his last defense. His shoulders sagged, the fight draining out of him all at once, leaving only exhaustion and a grief so dense it felt physical. He dragged a hand down his face, as if wiping away the present might return him to a past where this moment did not exist.

“I thought you were healing,” he murmured. “I thought we were healing.” His laugh came out broken, edged with disbelief at his own foolishness. “I told myself your distance was fear, not calculation. I told myself patience would fix what I broke.”

She turned from the window then, fully facing him, and for a moment he saw something raw flicker beneath her control. Not pity. Not softness. Something older. Something scarred.

“I healed a long time ago,” she said quietly. “Just not into someone who could forget.”

The words sank into him slowly, like cold water creeping up his spine. He remembered the girl she used to be the one who had loved him with her whole unguarded heart, who had trusted him without contingency. He had mistaken her silence back then for strength, her endurance for forgiveness. The truth pressed in on him now, relentless and unforgiving.

He pressed his hand to his chest, fingers curling into fabric as if he could physically contain the collapse happening beneath his ribs. “I didn’t know,” he said, and this time his voice cracked beyond repair. “I swear I didn’t understand how deeply I hurt you.”

“I know,” she replied.

That was what broke him.

Because she wasn’t denying his remorse. She wasn’t questioning his pain. She was acknowledging it and still choosing to walk away. The fairness of it was unbearable.

“I stayed,” she continued, stepping closer, her presence suddenly heavy in the air between them, “because I needed you to feel safe. I needed you to believe again. I needed you to stand exactly where I once stood, certain, hopeful, unguarded.”

Her gaze did not leave his face. “Only then would it be equal.”

Tears blurred his vision before he could stop them, sliding down his cheeks in helpless, silent streaks. He didn’t bother wiping them away. There was no dignity left to preserve. The yellow of his clothes felt obscene now, too bright against the grief weighing him down, like sunlight mocking a man already buried in shadow.

“I would have spent my life making it right,” he said hoarsely. “I would have carried that guilt forever if it meant keeping you.”

“I know,” she said again, softer this time. “And I would have spent my life wondering whether you loved me… or just the absolution.”

The distinction sliced cleanly through him, leaving nothing untouched. He saw then that this was not cruelty. This was her choosing herself in a way she never had before.

With shaking hands, he picked up the pen. His fingers trembled so violently that he had to steady his wrist with his other hand, pressing down hard as if anchoring himself to the table. Each stroke of his signature felt like carving something out of his future quiet mornings, shared silences, the fragile hope that time could soften everything. By the time he finished, his chest ached with a hollow, echoing pain that felt endless.

He slid the papers toward her without looking up.

“It’s done,” he said softly.

She gathered them with calm efficiency, but when she looked at him again, there was something almost human in her eyes, weariness, perhaps, or the faintest trace of sorrow that revenge could not erase.

“I hope someday this hurts less,” she said.

He shook his head slowly. “I don’t.” His voice was steady now, stripped of illusion. “If it stops hurting, it means I forgot what I did to you.”

She held his gaze for a long moment, then nodded once, accepting that truth as she had accepted everything else tonight.

When she turned and walked away, the yellow light clung to her, outlining her figure until the door closed with a soft, final click. The sound was small, almost polite, but it echoed through him like a verdict.

Aryansh remained where he was, alone in a room still glowing with false warmth. The candles burned steadily, the flowers remained beautiful, and the color yellow soaked into everything he would remember about this night.

And only then did he understand, with devastating clarity, that endings do not always come wrapped in darkness.

Sometimes they arrive bathed in light, smiling gently, and leave you standing in the ruins still warm, still bright, and utterly destroyed.

He stood before the mirror for a long time without really seeing it, his gaze unfocused, drifting, as though his mind were still trying to catch up to what his body already knew. The fairy lights strung along the wall fractured his reflection into uneven strips of light and shadow, cutting his face into versions that did not quite align. In one sliver he looked furious, jaw clenched so tightly it ached. In another, he looked emptied out, eyes dulled and distant. None of them looked like the man he remembered being this morning.

Petals lay crushed beneath his feet, yellow smears against the floor like bruises blooming too late. Candles burned low, wax spilling over their sides in pale, congealed tears. Everything in the room accused him. Every careful choice, every hopeful detail stared back as proof of his stupidity, his faith, his willingness to believe in a future that had never been his to claim.

His fingers curled around a vase before he consciously decided to move. The ceramic was cool, solid, real something he could feel, something that resisted him. The crash came before the thought fully formed, before logic or restraint could intervene. The sound of shattering glass tore through the room, sharp and violent, echoing off the walls like a scream finally given permission to exist.

The mirror splintered.

His reflection shattered into a hundred jagged fragments, each one catching a piece of his face his eyes wide and bloodshot, his mouth twisted in grief, his skin pale under the sickly yellow light. It felt right, somehow, to see himself broken that way. Honest. Accurate.

He shoved the bed aside with raw, reckless force, the frame scraping loudly against the floor, then moved through the room like a storm with no direction. One by one, he extinguished the candles, pinching each flame between trembling fingers, ignoring the sting as heat bit into skin. Smoke curled upward, thin and gray, twisting into the air like dying breath, like the last remnants of something that had once been alive.

When the final flame went dark, the room was swallowed by shadow.

Then he sat.

He lowered himself onto the floor amid glass and petals and overturned furniture, his back against the wall, knees drawn up, arms wrapped loosely around himself as though holding his body together required constant effort. The darkness pressed in, thick and absolute. No lights. No warmth. No false glow left to mock him with its cheer.

Just silence.

A silence so complete it rang in his ears.

Kiara did not stay.

She left the room, the house, the life they had briefly pretended still existed, without looking back. She returned to the house she once called home, but it did not welcome her. The stillness inside swallowed her whole, every room echoing with absence. No voices asking questions. No one telling her to sit, to explain, to reconsider.

She moved quickly, almost mechanically, afraid that if she slowed down doubt might catch her. Clothes folded without care. Documents stacked neatly. Personal things gathered without sentiment. She severed the threads of a shared life with efficiency born of long practice, of someone who had imagined this ending many times before.

When she left, the door did not hesitate.

Rhea’s door opened without judgment, without curiosity sharpened into interrogation. Kiara stepped inside and let exhaustion settle into her bones. She did not cry. Not yet. There would be time for that later, when her guard finally lowered.

Morning came regardless.

It always did.

Aryansh woke with a dull ache behind his eyes and a heaviness in his chest that had not eased with sleep. He dressed out of habit, moved out of reflex, and went to work as though routine might anchor him to something solid. It didn’t. The building felt too loud, the lights too harsh, every sound scraping against nerves already stripped raw.

He snapped at files, at assistants, at mistakes that barely existed. Numbers blurred on the page, refusing to hold meaning. Meetings dissolved into a wash of voices that seemed to come from far away. His chest felt tight, constricted, as though the past had wound itself around his throat again pulling, reminding him, refusing to loosen its grip.

Why now?
Why again?

The questions looped endlessly, cruel and unanswerable. Hadn’t she said she forgave him? Hadn’t she stayed? Hadn’t she chosen him again when walking away would have been easier?

The confusion exhausted him more than the grief. By the time evening bled into night, he felt hollowed out, scraped clean of anything but fatigue.

He returned home late.

Too late.

The house greeted him with a quiet that felt wrong the moment he stepped inside. Not peaceful. Vacant. The kind of silence that carries bad news in its bones.

His mother sat awake in the living room, worry etched deep into her face, hands clasped tightly in her lap. She stood the moment she saw him, searching for his expression, already sensing the truth before he spoke.

“Aryansh,” she said softly. “Kiara’s things… they’re gone. And you haven’t been answering calls. Is everything alright?”

Something in him finally collapsed.

The last fragile structure holding him upright gave way without resistance. He dropped his bag where he stood and crossed the room slowly, unsteadily, like a man learning how to walk again. Then he lowered himself to the floor at her feet and rested his head in her lap, the way he had as a child when the world felt too big and unforgiving.

“I lost her again, Ma,” he whispered.

The words barely survived the journey out of him. His voice cracked, splintered, stripped of pride or control.

“I don’t know how to do this again,” he said, breath shaking violently now. “I really don’t. I tried this time. I fixed everything. I did everything right.” His voice broke completely, dissolving into sobs he could no longer restrain. “I signed the papers, Ma. I didn’t even fight. I just… let her go. I lost her… again.”

His body shook uncontrollably, grief tearing through him in waves that left him gasping. His hands clutched at her sari like it was the only thing anchoring him to the world, knuckles white, fingers desperate.

“I don’t understand what I did wrong,” he cried. “How am I supposed to survive this twice? How do you lose the same person twice and still keep breathing?”

His mother’s heart clenched painfully.

She had never seen him like this, not even the first time. This grief was deeper, heavier, compounded by hope raised and destroyed. She cupped his face gently, tears pooling in her own eyes as she pressed his head back into her lap, cradling him as if he were still small enough to be protected from pain.

“Hush,” she whispered, stroking his hair, rocking him slowly. “Breathe. Just breathe, beta. I’m here.”

But he couldn’t.

Not yet.

He cried until his chest ached and his throat burned, until the strength drained from his limbs and he sagged against her, emptied out. The house bore witness in silence, walls absorbing a grief too heavy for one night, too cruel for one man.

And as she held him there rocking him gently, protectively she understood with terrifying clarity that this was not just heartbreak.

This was a man unraveling at the seams over the loss of the one thing he believed had finally saved him.

And some losses, she knew, do not simply hurt.

They unmake.


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